There is nothing constant but change..

Obviously I've been very busy the past months that's why I haven't submitted any entry..

From the time I was hired until now (11 months in the company) A LOT has happened already. Words are not enough to describe how i felt then and how i feel now, but this is just it.....


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My first entry for 2006

Wow... when was the last time I made an entry? has been like 6 months i guess! Sorry friends for not updating this.. busy with work and emotional stress..

Now I'm officially working for JWT Philippines and it'll be my 6th month on the 18th =) work is toxic but i'm enjoying it =) on my 2nd month, I was accidentally promoted as Project Manager hehehe.. swerte! and now I'm handling 2 accounts. I'm so happy that God blessed me with this job despite everything that happened. Package pa na he gave me a boss who is so considerate and sobrang bait. Another thing.. just wana share this kse excited na ko, we'll have a company outing on March in VIETNAM! yeah all expense paid baby! =) tagal pa but ima share you some pictures after I get back..

If you're gonna ask me bout.. me.. well.. I'm honestly not ok. Parang I'm not that cheerful as I used to be.. ever since my dad died, it's like everything's just floating / hanging.. I just work, go home, stay with friends on weekends etc.. but It's like everyone around me's just floating.. gets? basta.. then sometimes while i'm driving, tears would suddenly flow to the point that I can't see the road anymore.. pero feeling ko di ko pa talaga na-iyak na sobrang iyak.. i don't know, I hope everything will be ok soon..

Anyway, have to go back to work coz i have a lot of reports to do! whew! till the next entry..

Thank you Lord!

It's true that blessings come to those who wait! =) Last thursday I applied to HSBC alabang with Yvette. We passed our resumes and the receptionist told us to wait for their call. Honestly, my last resort really is to work for a call center again. That night, I was in my usual depressed state and I was just lying down on my bed listening to the radio. I decided to pray.. I prayed to the Lord and told him to give me a sign.. the sign would be that the first job offer that I get would be the job that he wants for me. I closed my eyes expecting that the agency for the call center would call me soon and schedule me for the interview and exam... In call centers, a week would be too long to get the job offer.
The next morning when I was still asleep ( i usually wake up around 2pm), our maid woke me up and told me I had a phone call. Expecting that that was it, I walked over to my parent's room and picked up the phone. "Phone interview" I said to myself but no! It was Agnes! She is the girl who interviewed me from JWT (formerly known as J Walter thompson) a month ago. I wanted that job so much but she told me that since I don't have any experience in advertising there is low possibility that I would be considered. After a month of waiting, there she was on the other line and asked me if i was employed already and if I was still interested for the position. The smile on my face was the smile I haven't done for months! =) The feeling was definitely tremendous! And so there... she asked for my expected salary and she said that she's gonna schedule me next week (which is this week) for the final interview with her boss. OH MY GAWD PEEPZ! this is it!!! hopefully i will be considered for the position under the accounts department =) big time company pa!! sobrang dream ko to work for an advertising agency then if ever I'll be handling their events! one of which is the red horse music laban.. kewl huh?! =)
Anyway, I couldn't help but thank the Lord for his unending love for me. I thank him for answering my prayers =) Grabe dun lang ako humingi ng sign sa kanya then the next day there it was! =) hay grabe I'm so happy =) Just wanna share this to you guys especially to those who sent me a messsage and posted a comment.. sheller thanks! I miss you and hope to see you soon =) to my other friends who I see often, thanks so much for your patience and support =)
Oh well.. I hope this is a start of a new begining for me. Even if my dad's not well and can't speak anymore..I'm sure he's happy for me. Sayang nga lang kung sana ok sya.. sana magkapitbahay lang kami ng building.. yun nalang problema ko guys, yung sa dad ko but don't worry, I'm trying to go through this wisely and not waste my life. Thank you Lord for pulling me up bit by bit from the darkness of miseries =)

Same old shit!

Ok.. I know this is the only time again that I'm able to make an entry but pardon me guys because I honestly don't know what to write down.. as usual I still feel so down.. haven't wrote it down but what I felt felt then until now is still the same.. SAME OLD SHIT!!! promise hirap na ko with my situation.. I feel so down bout everything that's happening! got no work.. my dad's dying.. financially wise we're having a lot of problems.. friends? well.... not in good terms.. I damn miss my old life guys.. please give me insights.. I need it please!

This Fuckin' Life...

Honestly, I don't know why I have to be in this situation. Damn it! I've been trying Soooooooooo hard to be patient in life. It's true when they say that as you grow older,things get more complicated.

July 2002, when I learned that my Dad had lung cancer, I felt like as if a big fat ass woman was sittin' on my chest. I couldn't breathe... The feeling was so new but in a tremendous depressing state. Plus my partner broke up with me at that same day. My work was affected up to the point that I had to leave it. Was just thankful for my friends, especially my bestfriend Faye and this person whom I just met through the internet. My friends stayed with me when I had to cry. They let me feel that I still can get my source of strength from them.

This person I met in the internet was someone I never expected to be part of this damn life. In fairness, she helped me a lot! She is the only person who made me realize that it's not really the end of everything or this is not the worst because her dad died in an instant when she was 18..the cause.. heart attack, and i can say it was definitely harder for her. But just hearing her talk and whenever we chat and converse bout life, it gives me hope and i'm happy bout the fact that even if my Dad's really getting worse everyday... at least I have that chance each day to make it up for him and make him feel the I love hime so much. Gurl (you know who you are) just wana say thank you really for being there.. Thanks for believing in me.. thanks for giving me hope.. I owe u a lot! I promise to make it up to you once I get the chance to go there in LA.

And to all my other hommies' I really appreciate you guys for listening with my crap... the things you do for me... I may not say it but it's such a big thing... THANK YOU!

Where was I....??

Woah! Has been like MONTHS since I made my last entry!! Anyway, I'm back! I'm here in the Office, just came from a couple of clients so I was out almost the whole day. The whole week has been.. well.. what can I say.. boring? well nothin' much to talk about.. it's just the same old work and shit but hey anyway! I forgot to inform you guys that I already resigned from this company and my last day will be on Feb 15, 2005. Reason? well I really need to get a higher paying Job coz you all know that my dad has brain cancer right? and so obviously I have to work my ass out double so I can help out financially. So there! I officially filed my resignation from JobStreet/Summit!

Last Friday, My Summit hommies and I went to Punta Fuego for an overnight stay. The place was so nice and Wow paolo, i say your house is definitely expensive (including all stuffs inside and shit) Ganda ng house nyo promise! we should definitely go back there soon ayt! =) Ima share some pictures..

I left the other pictrures at home hehehe =) anyway, my back is really aching and I have to stretch this out.. Ima try to log in again sometime soon... later!

reminiscin'...

I'm here at the office (as usual) but i'm not really supposed to be here 'coz I needed to do some research and recommendations for a project.. but anyway I'm here alone! Sheeesh I hope I won't see anyone or is it 'anything'?? it's giving me the creeps, I keep on looking behind my back I feel like someone's standing there...

Anyway, just remembered something.. was browsing through my files at home and saw some pictures... I remembered the time Dot came here in Pinas, she lives in LA... well it is a long story.. my friends know it though =) anyway pumpkin if you're reading this entry.. just wanted to tell you that I hella missed those days! remember when we went to Boracay? haaaayyyy!!!!! Paradise! =)

we stayed at Boracay Regency for 3 days and what do you expect?? We drank the whole time! We even agreed on drinking one bottle per bar and see up to where our powers can manage.. hahaha =)

A lot of things came to my mind.. it's so good to think of what happened to me last year. Was still working at Teletech/Vocativ and I was one helluva bored CSR. Career wise, I never dreamt of spending 90% of my working hours just sittin' and talkin to customers and listen to their endless concerns!.. One thing that made me stay though was my peers.. the adixxx! =) I miss those days guys =( The whole time I was there, even if it was so dragging for me to report on a graveyard shift, I still enjoyed it 'coz of our usual yosi break and meal break which we only spent 10 minutes of it eating then the rest just outside smoking and sharing stories whether shallow or emotional =)

There's Trina... my kumpare..trops! hehehe we're the closest among the others



And the rest of 'em ... haaayyy I miss you guys!!





By the way, just wanted to show you my pictures last year..

That's our dog Dodi..



Me in Southmall (When I resigned, juz spent the whole time bummin' around)



In starbucks g4 (I hate malls promise :p)



wait a minute.. who's that sexy gurl! damn you're HOT! =)



at mga panahong nag aadik ako.. hehehe :p



Whew! well I guess that's it! It feels really great to reminisce =) later! =)